The {HEART} versus the {HEAD}

God is faithful, but do we believe it?  It’s so easy to give lip-service to truths we know in our heads, but do we truly believe them?  Have we had a heart revelation?  Spurgeon once said that an ounce of heart revelation is worth FAR more than a ton of head knowledge.  I think that so often as Christians we [head] know stuff but we don’t [heart] understand it. 

Perhaps only a personal experience of God’s faithfulness can help us to [heart] understand what we [head] know.  But judging from my own experience, and looking at the example of the Israelites in the Old Testament COUNTLESS times, this is not always the case.  We are a forgetful people.  We forget how faithful God is and has been in our lives.

I accepted Jesus just under eight years ago, and looking back over the past most amazing 8 years of my life, I can see God’s hand and faithfulness all the way.  Yet, in the biggest things I still sometimes struggle at times to believe that He will come through.  It’s like I have this timeline of how I think my life should pan out...ministry, marriage and all of that.  The thing is God is working on a WHOLE other timeline that is far better than any timeline or plan I could dream up.  And I DO know that His plan for our lives is AMAZING.  I’ve seen the start of mine and it’s been pretty mind-blowing thus far.  I also know that I cannot imagine a more awful fate than not living out all He has called me to.  I mean, imagine being 50 and looking back on your life with regrets?  All because you decided to go on your own mission because you failed to trust the perfection of God’s timing and plan?  The thought makes me sick.

While in this frame of mind, it makes complete and utter sense to trust.  But at times I still find myself questioning whether He will come through.  Perhaps the key is to continually meditate on Him and His promises...to continually remind myself of the countless times He HAS been faithful.  To renew my mind.  That’s biblical...surprise surprise the bible makes sense!! haha J  One thing I know for certain though...the Love I live for is greater than any love I could receive from another person.  And for that reason, I will continue to sacrifice, serve, love, be faithful, and most of all: be patient.  Because when God’s plan works itself out in the area I am trusting for, it will be so perfect and so sweet, that I will even regret this time of questioning.